Orangewillow

Let me start off by saying I did manage to get my jewelry up last night.  I priced it a lot lower than I normally do but I want people to see how beautiful it is and generate some buzz.

 Now in other obsessions I have in my life Ryan Star got voted off SuperNova last night which bummed me.  I like several other rockers and I admit that Ryan’s last couple performances haven’t been the greatest but he was still a super talented guy.  On a side note though I thought his exiting speach seemed a little egotistical.

I am very excited as tonight Big Brother All Stars is on.  I am in love with this season’s cast.  Well, mostly Boogie and Will.  They are so fun and cookie.  I know a lot of people keep saying how they are aweful and manipulative but come, on!  Honestly people, its a GAME!  A game based on strategy and they are playing the game so well its amazing.  Though I do feel kind of bad for Erika.  And for all of you who watch was anyone else put off by Danielle’s reaction to being put up.  I thought Erika handled it in a very mature way and Danielle needed to be a little more mature.  The only way to truely be safe is win HOH and unfortunately Danielle didn’t so she needs to accept that and understand Erika is just playing the game.

FYI… in celebration of my birthday next week (September 6th) I am having a special in my etsy store.  From August 31st through September 6th all my prints are buy one get one free!  A great deal considering my prints are $12 each.

In addition I love getting feedback or piece suggestons so keep the emails coming.  If you like my work pass the link along.

So have you ever been driving in the car and jamming to a song and it just feels right.  Like thats the perfect song to be driving to at that moment.  Well that happens to me on a much broader scale.  When I listen to my ipod, which is all the time, I feel like thats the soundtrack to my life.  There was a time that even when I didn’t have headphones on I would hear music in my head and be dancing in the isles of the grocery store or have a sway as I walk down the street, every step hitting a silent beat.  Well my soundtrack disappeared about 6 months ago.  I don’t know why.  Ihave been through a lot this past year.  Issues in my personal relationships, laid off from a high paying job, financial strain from taking a much lower paying job, stress from the new job, and so on and so forth.  Basically life just became overwhelming.  It seemed like the only thing that could pull me out of my funk was my daughter, Zoe.  She could help just about anyone cheer up.

Well this morning a switch flipped and my Soundtrack came back.  I was listening to some Killers on my Ipod and I got shills, the same feeling I used to have all the time 6 months ago.  Everything in my mind just clicked and it was like I was reborn.  I think life got the better of me and I was forgetting who I was.  I am a mother first.  She is my world.  I love and fear God and even though I stumble daily I know he forgives me.  I love my family and come from the arms of an amazing and supportive bunch.  I am ambitious and I work hard.  I may not have the sells I want st etsy but I am doing much better than when I began and I need to have faith that I am a good artist and quit questioning myself.  I want to be an art teacher and I will achieve that goal one day!  Just as an FYI for those of you who do not realize this.  My goal with my etsy store is that it will provide a living to sustain me while I go back and finish school (I am half way done).  I love to create art and to be able to teach and share my love would be a dream come true.  My message to everyone is find your soundtrack and love it.  Live life to the fullest.  Live for the moment.  I know I sound like a freaking motivational speaker but a fire in my belly has been lit and I can’t ignore it.

Just some bands that contribute to the Soundtrack of my life (alphabetically - I could never list them all)…

1. A Perfect Circle
2. The All American Rejects
3. Beastie Boys
4. Ben Folds (an all variations)
5. Breaking Benjamin
6. Cake
7. The Cardigans
8. The Cure
9. The Cranberries
10. Jack Johnson
11. Jimmy Eat World
12. The Killers
13. Kings of Leon
14. Natalie Merchant
15. NIN
16. Nirvana
17. Old 97’s
18. REM
19. Smashing Pumpkins
20. STP
21. U2
22. *** Anyone and everyone on the Garden State Soundtrack.  Its like they made that just for me!

 In closing I need some ideas from individuals.  I am a bleeding heart.  Every aweful thing on TV I see makes me want to do something extreme like adopt a child from China or start a mission in Cambodia.  I was going off on a tangent to a friend about how the world needs to change and they said something that struck a cord.  In a brutal and blunt way they called me out.  Said I am all talk and not the type of person who would actually do anything.  Now let me add this person believes one person can’t make a difference and though it sucks short of aliens landing and giving us a bigger perspective things will not change.  I however strongly believe one person can make a difference, maybe not to the world but to one person, one family, and so on.  My goal is to gather ideas from people on how to make a difference.  My daughter is 21 months old and I want to involve her, teach her, help her grow and become a mind of the future.  I know my readers must have thoughts on this.  Help me, share with me…